Well, it has been a while since I last posted. I didn't mean for that to be the case! But, as usually happens when life happens, things got in the way. And here we are at the beginning of 2010 and my head is not quite here with us in the New Year. But it will get there, it always does.
2009-year-of-singing was a tough year. Musically & personally, it was a year of great ups-and-downs. Not just for me, but for the people around me too. It was full of challenges in places I didn't expect to have challenges!
I didn't sing as much as I had wanted! But, I set up gigs in Perth, Melbourne, Esperance, New York, London, Iowa City & Chicago. There's some big cities in there! I should be proud of myself, and yet instead I think of places like San Francisco, LA, St Louis, Portland & Sydney that I never heard back from. Places that didn't even write to me to say, "No, we don't want you, we think you suck!". But, I don't think I suck (or maybe I am just an imbecile banging her head on a wall in doing this? Where does this blind faith come from?), - I just think I didn't find the right places. And that's ok, I will try different places this year. Because I am not giving up. It's not about the blind faith or some sort of stoic determination, it's just because it is what I have to do. Shit, not even what I *have* to do, just what I do. Music is just what I do because I want to.
In 2009 I also wrote, I drew, I made art, I read, I played a little guitar, and I worked really hard on the thing I love.
So, what do I want to in 2010?
Sing.
Cook. (I started a blog called Bessie Pearl's Ledger, all about recipes from my Great-Grandma, - and am having the BEST time).
Write.
See more of my friends.
I think I just might be able to manage that! I hope you'll join me as I write about it along the way!
Happy 2010!
xx n
2009-year-of-singing was a tough year. Musically & personally, it was a year of great ups-and-downs. Not just for me, but for the people around me too. It was full of challenges in places I didn't expect to have challenges!
I didn't sing as much as I had wanted! But, I set up gigs in Perth, Melbourne, Esperance, New York, London, Iowa City & Chicago. There's some big cities in there! I should be proud of myself, and yet instead I think of places like San Francisco, LA, St Louis, Portland & Sydney that I never heard back from. Places that didn't even write to me to say, "No, we don't want you, we think you suck!". But, I don't think I suck (or maybe I am just an imbecile banging her head on a wall in doing this? Where does this blind faith come from?), - I just think I didn't find the right places. And that's ok, I will try different places this year. Because I am not giving up. It's not about the blind faith or some sort of stoic determination, it's just because it is what I have to do. Shit, not even what I *have* to do, just what I do. Music is just what I do because I want to.
In 2009 I also wrote, I drew, I made art, I read, I played a little guitar, and I worked really hard on the thing I love.
So, what do I want to in 2010?
Sing.
Cook. (I started a blog called Bessie Pearl's Ledger, all about recipes from my Great-Grandma, - and am having the BEST time).
Write.
See more of my friends.
I think I just might be able to manage that! I hope you'll join me as I write about it along the way!
Happy 2010!
xx n
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